Alone

This feeling come again
I feel that no one besides me
Even I'm between lot of people
Or even I'm in crowded situation
I just can sit, dazed, don't do anything
Seems like an autism child...

When I'm in home
I hope that I'll feel more comfort
But, the fact, NOT!
What I've got is...
I feel alone again
very very alone
Like no one loves me
Like I'm not there
I need the care
But, I don't get it
Instead, I feel more alone

One that I can do is...
CRYING!
I don't know how many litre of tears ever fell until today
But, in my prayer
I just can say
God, why I must feel this again?
Take my pain God
I'm not as strong as U know
I'm just an ordinary people
That wants to be happy
to be cared
to be loved
n to let others know that...
I'M HERE